Tearis Shattered Moon

Pain


Pain coursing through my veins

Just reminds me of past pains

Blood pulsing through my flesh

Is making such a horrid mess

The burning in my body

Causes such a horrid push

Into a hellish life

This pain comes in such a rush

I didn’t wanna live my life

This pain cuts through me like a knife

My blood runs hot

And my soul runs cold

Just a few reminders

That I’m gonna grow old

I’m already starting to wither away

Perhaps I’ll never know the new day

I’m in such pain

And I’m such a horribly depressed girl

Since I found my way

My tears often fall like rain

And I’ll always be in pain

Tearis Shattered Moon  7~22~2003

 

You

You mean the world to me

You are he

That I have dreamed about

Now I turn to pout

Since you are leaving me

All I do is cry to thee

And the love I feel for you

I am alone and very blue

Since I know I love you

But you don't love me too

Tearis Shattered Moon

March 11th 2004

 

Writer

I am a writer

Who has not made it

I love to write

But I struggle feeling like shit

Because I am a starving writer

Who works a dead end job

Struggling to survive

And pay my way through college

To better myself

I write to relax

And to better myself

To become more then that

I love people dearly

I am a saddened writer

Struggling to survive

Rosetta 9-29-03

 

Worthlessness


I am filled with a worthlessness

That is so very strong in me

You shun my horrid fugly side

And stand so wonderful in front of me

You look at me like a little gnat

With eyes of green and angry cat

Who thinks a mouse can steal its attention

From those who should only love it

I just have one question

Why would anyone love a mouse

When they have a lovely cat

Instead of this ugly mouse

One who is so fugly and fat

There are all kinds of people true

But the fact is

That no matter how it looks to you

Everything that I do

Could never reach the toe of you

Tearis Shattered Moon  2001

 

WORKING


Must work

Must not play

Must try harder

Must keep pushing

Must succeed

Never time to play

Never time to relax

Gotta get things done

Gotta keep working

Can't slow down

Can't relax

Can't let the pain

Catch up with me

I'm working

Looking for a job

Working on my writing

Fighting for my rights

No time for friends

No time to play

Must write

Must type

Must continue to bury myself

In all of my work

Maybe I'll avoid the pain

Must keep working

All through the new day

Must keep working

And typing away

Tearis Shattered Moon September 24, 2003

 

Wondering


I've been wondering

Why now eagles no longer fly

Along with the pained thought

Will I ever get to die


I'm sitting in wonderment

Wishing my life could end

I'm wondering and crying

And finding my way to make it end


As I sit wondering

I pull out a gun

Wondering why I should live

I pull the trigger


I'm bleeding, dying, and wondering

If now I've made a stupid mistake

Wondering now if there was a point

To the emptiness of the life I take


But now sadly its too late for wondering

And I myself created the waste of my life

I'm miserable but no longer wondering

As I die alone, I know I was selfish

Now it will be others turn

To see my life in selfishness

And to live their lives in pained wondering

Tearis Shattered Moon, October 23th 2003

 
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